Why I Don't Feel Strong Sometimes
I have been trying to find a way to write these thoughts for weeks. This is the best I could come up with. The last few weeks have been complicated. Health issues have affected our home, and I find myself handling more than I often think I am capable of. We have bee n incredibly blessed with a support network of people who have been there for us unconditionally, which has triggered tears in both myself and the kids more times that I would like to admit. Somehow, our house and family are still standing, even when my brain is flooded with “what ifs” and “how comes” multiple times throughout the day. And while the world seems to be on pause, our lives haven’t. Ethan now has Google Meets three to four times a day, Lily meets with her friends on Zoom two to three times a day, and I am still working, with added learnings through the NGF and the JewV’Nation Fellowship. And while staying busy has been a saving grace, those distractions eventually stop, and I am left to my own thoughts. One of